The old saying is that a picture is worth a thousand words – and when I look in my photo program, I have a whole library of words that ‘go’ with the photos. It brings me back to why I take photos. With the integration of smart phones and cameras it means that, for me, I don’t drag out the ‘good’ camera as often and predominantly use my phone. This means that I find myself flooded with images, as opposed to some carefully crafted or opportune moments that were found when you had to worry about the quantity of film being used, or the wonder of seeing the film when you picked it up from developing. I kind of miss those days. Sometimes you take a hundred photos to get one ‘good’ shot. Then other days you find yourself not taking a single photo at all.
A couple of weeks ago, Caitlyn got ‘lost’ at a busy shopping centre. We don’t normally ‘break formation’, and I am so conscious of all of us sticking together, so this was a first. It was so busy, and she was just walking ahead of me. Emma was lagging (“I only have little legs”) so I was with her, B and Hayden. I saw her dress flicker around the corner, and then she was gone by the time I got there. I mean gone. I could not hear her, I could not see her. It was horrible. I felt sick, and the adjective anxious would be an understatement.
A few years ago, there was a great song by Frou Frou – Let Go. I am not great at determining song meanings, but I really think this song is about humanity, and what it is like to love, live and experience every day adventures. I love the line ‘ there is beauty in the breakdown’ – as it rings true with me constantly. I can honestly say, that as a mother of four, I loose my crap, and do ‘break down’. It might be over spilt milk, or another sibling fight. But in that moment, and for every moment, I am beautiful and amazing to my kids. The relevance here? Give me a few minutes of your time…
My four kids are going to have their perception of beauty and self image modelled by me (no pun intended!). I am pretty crap at accepting a compliment, have next to no fashion sense or any idea of style, and would list my favourite clothing as pyjamas. But to my four kids, I am a rock star. I am ‘so pretty mummy’, have the nicest shoes (pink chuck taylors), and have the bestest t-shirt (featuring wonder woman). None of these items of apparel will land me on the cover of a magazine; but for my kids, I am the prettiest lady in the world. And I need to learn to accept this. Because, I do not want my chickens thinking that there is anything wrong with them – we are all unique, we are all magical, and we are all beautiful. Easy to say, harder to prove!
I shy away from the camera, and if I do have to have a photo taken, I scrutinise my appearance. I don’t know why because I am yearning for the near impossible. I am never going to look like ‘that’. I am never going to have junk in my trunk because let’s face it, my trunk has been through two pregnancies – one a triplet pregnancy, and it has now in my 30’s seen better days. But my laugh lines, are that – my laughing, smiling and absolute moments of hysterical laughing. Moments etched in time, and etched in lines I guess is a good way to put it. My stretch marks on my tummy are my kids paintings. I tell them that when they were in my tummy, they got bored sometimes and this is what they did. I kinda like that they are there, they are a reminder that I can do and grow pretty good things. And that I am strong. But they are not that pretty!
Despite all my perceived faults, I have a husband who loves me, and children who know nothing different as I am their mum. Sure the scales vary, and I find it harder to coerce them the ‘right’ way sometimes when that baked delight is looking so incredibly good, but I have to learn to shift my focus before my kids learn bad habits and perceptions from me.
Hella Autumn & Hello April! Some days I am dumbfounded that we are in the fourth month already. Hayden has completed term one of school, and the triplets are 2 years and nine months old today! Time flies…and lately it has been hectic to say the least! As you can see, my blog has had an overhaul (and looks amazing) – the very talented Kellie Winnell is totally responsible for the gorgeousness 🙂
So, a catch up of sorts….Tuesday night we had the pleasure of food poisoning. Three hours in, and about 20 sheets later I had one of those ‘never thought I would be doing’ moments where I was forcing vomit down the sinkhole plugs. You know those idle moments where you actually stop and think about what you are doing?! Well that was one of them for me! And I have to say, ten years ago, I would never have thought I would be forcing vomit down a plug hole! Thankfully all four kids were perfectly fine by morning, leaving just me to recover and wash (and wash and wash…..)
Every day I am realising is just whizzing on by. I am so thankful for technology! I am able to capture so many moments every day with my phone. Yep, my phone gets more of a work out than my ‘real’ camera these days, but I love the shots! We have had quite a few milestones lately – B had his first hair cut – he looks like a real little boy now (not that he was fake before, he just had the baby curls!) Here are some before and after shots –
The girls can wait a little longer to have their first hair cuts – Caitlyn has crazy curls still…and Emma, well her hair is super long and more than halfway down her back now!
Easter was a quiet event this year. We went to the family egg painting day – Caitlyn took things into her own hands and went just a little crazy with the paint…
The kids had a ball painting eggs and catching up with family. Here are some of their creations – Emma has a very big artistic streak and had to be dragged away from the eggs and paint!!
The kids wear ‘old’ clothes for reasons you can clearly see! They had a ball 🙂
Hayden’s school Easter Parade was very cute – this year he really had his listening ears on and actually did do the dance correctly! His Bonnet was also a big cute –
The Easter Bunny’s visit was very well received in our house – thankfully the Easter Bunny did not go crazy with chocolates! There was four very happy little kids here on Easter Sunday. Chocolate after breakfast was according to B “very yummy”!
March seemed to fly buy – and looking through photos we did what we do so often, went to the museum a few times! The Explore-A-Sauras exhibit ends this week, and we have had about 4 visits now. The kids just loved it. Hayden is already wondering what will be the next exhibit! More strolls through Southbank on Sunday afternoons where it is still a blistering heat – longing for the cooler days!! One Sunday recently we stumbled across the supposed nocturnal possum –
The kids were amazed – we used to get many possums at our previous house but only ever saw them at night. So Caitlyn was wondering why this possum was ‘awake’ when it wasn’t ‘nigh nigh time!’. I snapped another cool shot – it is of an Ibis, and whilst they are pests, they are really only around because we leave so much waste! But here is a cool shot anyways –
This photo actually has no filter – and is not shot in black and white – it is in colour, its just the angle I snapped it at (how the kids saw it – so from 4″ high!).
Daily routine takes over, as we juggle the kids, work and normal day to day things like groceries! Some days, there is nothing better than nap time. The trio really try my patience lately, but I guess I am always going to be outnumbered! In saying that, they are 2 years and 9 months old today and have developed perfectly, and met every milestone often before they should. I am pretty darn lucky I know, just some days. wow, I am one tired mumma!
We headed to Australia Zoo last Monday. We bought annual passes last year when we went with some visiting friends. So we were not bothered about ‘seeing everything’. Jase forgot the pram…so we had to hire this –
The kids loved them – they were great for getting them around and we had often thought about buying them. I think they are probably too old for them now! We did however, attract a lot of attention! Hayden was very brave and handled a few creatures –
We spent a great deal of time meandering around and the kids all had a Pony ride. Interestingly enough, the kids were absolutely entranced by the snakes – in particular, the Taipan!
Our other big milestone – Hayden’s first wiggly tooth! He is so very excited 🙂
I can’t imagine what Hayden is going to look like with his two front teeth missing! But am surely going to find out soon enough.
That about covers the last few weeks…busy times!